The Arrival

Jillian Elisabeth and Maxwell Mark made their entrance into the world on Friday night, January 12th. What follows is the best of my recollection of their arrival.

January 11th; 6AM --- we were scheduled to call into L&D to make sure they had a bed ready for us to come in for our induction. After a pretty restful night's sleep, we made the call. Unfortunately we were told to call back at 830AM to find out what time we should come in. Already dressed, showered, hair fixed and make-up applied (I figured I should look nice for the pictures later that day), I fell back to sleep for another hour or so until we called back in. They told us to come in at 1130AM to start the induction. I was a little dismayed at the time because I figured that the induction could take a few hours until it actually started working and I was worried I would miss the 1/11 birthdate.

January 11th; 1130AM --- we arrived at the hospital and entered our room. I immediately became overwhelmed as they already had the baby warmer in our room waiting for us --- it was labeled Baby A and I started to cry just at the thought of what's to come. In a few minutes I was checked to see how far along I was and to determine what type of medication they'd give me to start the induction process. Knowing that I was a fingertip dialated nearly 3 weeks ago, I was hoping that I'd at least be 3 cm dialated. Unfortunately, our first report should have been an indication of things to come --- I was still only a fingertip dialated. At this point we learned that the induction could take until Saturday! Never in my wildest dreams did I think the process would take that long.

January 11th; 130PM --- I was finally started on an IV of pitocin, a drug given to stimulate contractions. I immediately had a great reaction to the pitocin and started producing beautiful, consistent, strong (and I'll admit, not that painful of contractions). Throughout the day, the dosage was increased to help bring on the strong contractions that ultimately end up giving one the urge to push. I watched the clock all day and all night knowing that as the seconds ticked away, my chance for another reason why "11" is such a great number greatly fading away.

January 12th; 2AM --- I was checked again and learned that I was 3 cm dialated! Finally, some major progress. Just before 2AM I was given some pain medicine through my IV (not the epidural just yet). The pain medicine worked wonders, but the doctor who came in to tell me I was 3 cm dialated asked what I wanted her to do to get the ball rolling. Completely knocked out from the pain medicine, I told her that all I wanted was 2 McDonald's cheeseburgers. Unfortunately, she said it wasn't possible and she left my room, I think somewhat disappointed because she wouldn't have the opportunity to deliver the twins.

January 12th; 8AM --- 4 cm dialated. More progress! I spent the next several hours in various positions sucking on freeze pops and ice chips. Mostly I spent the day on a birthing ball rocking back and forth with the hopes of more dialation. Throughout the day, we watched and listened to our babies' heartbeats on the monitors. The thumping sounds were so relaxing to us; while all the other soon-to-be mothers (and fathers) had their televisions on, blasting throughout the ward, I couldn't even consider drowning out their heartbeats with the sounds of some lame talkshow. My contractions throughout the day were described by the medical staff as "perfect" and "textbook". They were off the charts (literally - the chart paper didn't register as high as they were); surely these perfect contractions would lead to some good dialation.

January 12th; 430PM --- they decided to break my water. After being checked another time and registering still at 4cm, the breaking of the water was meant to bring on heavier labor. I told them I wanted to have the epidural ready so that the second my water broke, I could have the epidural. My water - or as Mark likes to call it, Niagra Falls - was broken and within 5 minutes there was a team of anesthesiologists in my room having me sign consent papers, explaining the epidural process and then ultimately sticking the needle in my back. A slight pinch later, and the epidural was in and I was confined to my bed for the rest of the night.

January 12th; 8PM --- the attending physician visits my room with a short statement. "We're going to check you in 2 hours and if you're not any further dialated we're going to do a c-section." With that, my bed began to shake as my nerves overtook my body; I immediately got so scared after I heard those words. The entire 30 some hours I spent in the hospital in labor, I can honestly say I never thought about it ending in a c-section. True, throughout my pregnancy I always said I'd be okay with a c-section and at times even considered just asking for one. But the entire time I went through labor, I still felt I'd have them naturally. For some reason, after his statement and the initial shakes wore off, I fell asleep. I awoke at 9:30PM and said to the nurse: "Get the doctors in here to check me because if we're not any further along I want to have this c-section now. I don't want to wait any longer." Within the 1/2 hour, I was checked and learned I was no further. Five minutes later, a new team of anesthesiologists entered the room to give me the numbing medicine. I was prepped for surgery. Mark was whisked out of the room to get dressed for the surgery, but not before he ran downstairs to the waiting room to tell our family and friends what was happening.

January 12th; sometime after 10PM --- I'm wheeled into the OR. "Remain calm. Don't freak out." I told myself over and over again. The room was full of doctors and nurses. (We think there were about 16 in total). After they hurled me onto the table and everyone got in place, Mark was ushered in. I remember telling the doctors to make sure someone was in place to watch Mark because I wasn't sure he'd be able to handle being there without passing out. Mark held my hand and an extra doctor took our camera out of Mark's hands to take pictures.

A few minutes later, I could feel the tugging and the pulling and the pressure. It's such a weird sensation because I could feel everything they were doing, I just couldn't feel pain.

I remember the first baby being pulled from me and moments later hearing her scream. A minute later, the second was born and a sharp cry escaped from his lungs. My emotions flooded the room. I was happy, relieved, scared, overjoyed. You name it; I felt it at that instant.

"How big are they?" I kept on asking. It felt like an eternity afterwards until they gave us their weights --- Jillian weighed 7 pounds 10 ounces; Max weighed 7 pounds 7 ounces (we later learned from some of the old nurses on the L&D floor that they were the largest twins born there in 26 years).

The NICU doctors and nurses spent some time with them; Mark heard the doctor say, "I don't need to see these babies." What a relief. After months of praying that our babies would spend minimal time away from us in the NICU, our prayers were answered. They wouldn't be spending anytime in the NICU at all. After I was put back together (I don't even want to know what they had to do; I've asked Mark not to tell me what he saw), I, along with my precious babies, was wheeled back to my room to recuperate for an hour. After the hour passed, our family and friends were allowed to meet the babes.

So, now it's been two weeks since Jillian and Max made their way into this world. I'm so amazed by them that I could spend hours just staring at them. It's unbelievable to me that these creatures are here, and they're mine. They are so healthy. They eat well, they sleep well. They are alert and happy. They poop and they pee; I change a lot of diapers and I clean a lot of bottles. I don't wear makeup and I live in sweats. I don't fix my hair and I haven't left the house in 2 weeks. I sleep in 3 hour increments. This was exactly what I was waiting for. Life couldn't be better.